isolation

drives men to unimaginable depths.
destroying lives.
brings death.
brought life?
destroying death?
brings men to unimaginable height?

words possess power.
it takes no spell to unmake a man.
hearts are tender things-
how careless have i been?
by my words i am judged.
with them i may build up or tear down.

i write to you.
to you, reading these words right now.
i have no idea where you are.
i have no idea what you are experiencing.
you have a choice.
will you believe the promises of God or not?

i have been silent far too long.
too much is at stake.
this is no game.
there is no restart.
i only live once.
will i be faithful?
will i hallow the name of Christ?
will i believe the promises of God?
here i stand. by the grace of God, i can do no other.
by his death and isolation i live.

to save a life

isolation.
is it good for a man to be alone.
ripping threads from the fabric of who we are
can we escape?
we chase high and low.
sex. love. drugs. parties and rock 'n roll.
we raise a glass up high
we lift our hands.
feelin nothing. the glass is empty.
are you running? are you chasing?
do you want to be free?
have you tried everything and still you need
someone to hold you.
somebody to care.
are you alone?
i'm with you.
i beat you there.

lies echo in halls from days gone by
reminding and remembering-a dangerous game
lockers line the way
did you ever stop to pray
if i make it one more day.
i'll stay. i'll stay.
people push you down- ain't nobody there
they're pushing and pushing and pushing some more
pain oozes out a broken bottle of milk
run away and hide don't let nobody stay
have you tried everything and still you need
somebody to hold you
somebody to care
are you alone?
i'm with you.
i beat you there.

you look out through eyes red sore and lame
you can't walk. you can't fight. you're filled with pain
from your mom from your dad from your sister and girl
you're beat down from the work from the school from the reign
of terror in life.
you got no hope. got no way- you can't even jerk
you dying man. you lost your game.
whatcha gonna do? where you gonna run?
will you let somebody care?
the answer ain't easy- there ain't no part to this cure.
someone to hold you.
to care.
whaddya care
you're alone.
but not the first.

Humility?

My heart aches
My eyes quake
My soul breaks
Does all shake?

What will stand?
Surely not my plan
No matter how grand
They seem to land
Without any grace
Like wedding lace
thrown in my face
leaving no trace

I'm left all alone
A dog with no bone
A call with no phone
My bird has flown

what if i can't?

life is short. we can never know if the chai we are drinking will be our last. life is fragile and fleeting. coming and going at random. oftentimes we have no ability to understand the circumstances surrounding us.

why pain? why grief? why partings? why? why? why?

there can be no answer. there must be no reason.

the choice is before me. clear as any. can i say that God is blessed whether He gives or takes away? Can i?
why am i still here? why did i come to see the light of day? can i believe God's promises? can i really believe that sorrow may last for the night, but joy will come in the morning?

What if i can't?

What if i just don't have the faith to believe? what then?
when the tears flow, not for myself, but for others. not because i understand, but because i don't, i wonder, "is it possible that the greatest pain that can be experienced is for someone else?" if so then my pain is not the deepest. my wound is not the deepest. my wounds have been healed?
and just like that a car jumps a median and hits my brother. no chance to react.
our decisions are like diamonds. once formed we may chip away at them but can never unmake them.
oh the grace i see in my life- when i have been spared from stupid decisions. when my life has been spared- protected? why? i know not. only i must not be ready to go. oh how i want to be ready. oh how i long to see my jesus face to face to hear well done faithful servant. to follow in the footsteps of the countless millions who have gone before me. to be cast upon the hands that grace has wrought.
i have been bought with the same price as all those who call upon the name of jesus to be saved, i am, by His grace alone, a child of the King. For His redemption I will wait.

moment that changed your life

so one day i was walking down the street drinking a cup of chai. as i crossed the street a car nearly hit me and i was afraid i was going to die. instead he swerved into a ginormous puddle and splashed water all over me. i spilled my chai. it was sad. i was soaking wet. this day changed my life. i learned to only chai while dry... this story is completely false.
what moments have changed your life?

to dive or sail

a group of men set out to explore an island.*
as they seek they find a shore
that leads them to the sea.
they sit down to discuss (over chai of course)
the best way to explore its entirety.
Hither and thither the discussion runs till all at once a man-
races from the group, dives in the sea, beginning to swim away.
Before he leaves his words ring out "To the deepest deep i go!"
following him closely a man disagrees-"to sail is best indeed!
embarking on a voyage beyond the realm of 'me'
I sail, across this sea to see all there is to see."

the others are puzzled. they drink their chai.
the sea bekons them nigh. How shall we go?
To depths or to cross? They drink and sit and think.
Then all at once they stand and began to join their boats as one.
They leave the shore sailing and diving each to his own as one.

*no it couldn't move through time and space. they were not there due to a plane crash or a boat crash. they were just there. accept it.

superhero powers

I hate to waste this post on an empty blog, but here goes...

Today I ate at subway with some friends and had a huge cup of green tea with honey. It was amazing.

I'll come to the point. Superheros are awesome. I don't fully understand our fascination with them, well that's not entirely true... but it's definitely for another post.

So my question is this. if you could have one superhero power, what would it be and why?